3.10.2004

Dengan kehendakNYA Yang Maha Mengasihani lagi Maha Menyayangi.....
Dengan berkat kekasihNYA......
Dengan Berkat Guru kita...
Dengan karomah ibu.....
Dengan hikmah ayah....

Mudahan kita tenang selalu ......amin

Assalamualaikum wbt....

Tahun ni...gue 3rd year(finalist)..dan gue kira ramai jugak yg nk grad dah nih...around 20++ kat sheffield nih.....
Rasa best, relief, eager, tension, longing for some one...all in one...I guess..

May we all live a prosperous life, insyaAllah.

And what on earth we have in our minds, once we've graduated fr the studies?!....get a decent job?..absolutely....
Further studies?!...most adviceable....

And for me, though nk juga buat MSc, but not now la rasanya..later on hopefully....
Maybe I'll werk first.gain some experiences.....get some loads...
And after that, the next step shall take place....in time preferably.

But, above all thoughts, there's one thing need to run concurrently....the search for yourself.....
Sounds wierdo...but that's a reality to me.....I believe so....
Is that managable?!...or more importantly is that possible?...or is that useful?
Indeed....it needs a lot of sacrifices, helps, and do'a of course...

Pesan panglima,
" ada mata, lihat, jangan percaya...
ada telinga, dengar , jangan percaya....
ada akal, fikir, gunalah dengan sempurna "

Jalan hidup dunia ni..lebih kurang lah sama macam kita nk naik kereta...............
Katakan...kita nk pi kedah..dari KL......
Destinasinya kedah.....
kenderaannya kereta...
pandu arahnya...papan tanda jalan raya...
ongkosnya...duit tol, duit minyak...duit makan...

Yang menjadi persoalan yg suka gue tanya ...nk naik kereta apa?....Merc kah?..BMW kah?.....Proton kah?.....Alpharomeo kah?......
Nak lalu jalan mana?..highway kah?..jalan kampung ka?.....
Nak speeding ka nk jalan pelan2?
Mana nk cari duit?.....

Duit?..duit tu dunia semata2!!!..jerit satu suara dari belakang...

Jawab gue....duit memang dunia...tapi sebagai alat saja....tidak gue bermatlamatkan duit...tadak duit tak boleh jalan beb!!Itukan hukum dunia...

Nak lalu short cut ni..boley ka?...jalan dah la tadak lampu....lalu pulak ladang2 getah....sunyi nye....orang tak penah bg tau pon ada jalan nih?.....jalan ni belok2..tapi cepat sampai..kata pakcik tua di hujung zamannya.

Ye lah pakcik..saya ikut je...

Gue bersama teman2....bergerombolan2 susuri jalan gelap...semak samun banyak..duri pon banyak..sbb tak rama org lalu...
tapi gue bukan jalan2 saja....gue kene dulu belajar cara nk baca peta...cara nk repair kereta kot2 rosak tgh jalan...tak lupa jugak gue mohon kat mak ayah restu...

Dalam jalan....nyamuk, pacat, lintah, lipan, ular bisa...bukan sedikit....tawakkal sajalah gue dan teman2.....ilmu yg DIA kasi tu gunalah setakat boleh utk hidup...

Dari jauh ku lihat cahaya lampu2.....ku dengar suara orang bercakapan......
Ah ..dah nk sampai nih.....!!
Eh..rupanya teman2 yg dahulu....berenti rehat rupanya....di tepian jalan....

gue dan teman2 terus saja....papan tanda bukan takde...cuma nk kene tgk teliti...baru faham....minyak kereta ada lagi....
Kot ada stesen minyak ke kite berenti lah kejap eh?!.....nk kene refill tank nih..dah nk kering...pesan teman..

Seketika.....gue dan teman singgah di kedai kopi....kelihatan pakcik tua tadi ada sama..bersama sahabat2 nya..senyumnya melembutkan kegusaran gue dan teman2...pakcik tu menyapa..bertanya khabar.....hati gue dan teman gembira.....terasa seperti keluarga yg jauh diseberang ada bersama....
Gue dan teman, salam pakcik dan sahabat2nya.....harum kasturi mengindahkan titik pertemuan malam itu.....gue berkata pada hati gue...sungguh gue terasa ketenangan malam ini...biarpon jauh dari mata ramai......
Pak cik bercerita lagi...sambil gue dan teman2 menghirup kopi panas.....kopi asli kampung.

Cerita2 pakcik hanya sepatah dua...tapi gue dan teman2...terasa seperti ada batu yg menghempap jiwa.......fikiran gue melayang memikir hari kemudian......pak cik tua berpesan selalu..."..kite kene mintak ampun kat DIA selalu, ucap selamat pada kekasihNYA selalu"
.....kite ni sapalah..pikir gue seorang.....buat sajalah apa yg pakcik tua tu pesan...harapan gue pada seorang pakcik tua ..teman2 gue jua

Hari sudah larut malam.......tapi mata gue belom lagi lemah...cuma jiwa gue mencair....memikir nasib badan....di esok hari......
Gue pejam mata dengan izinNYA jua..mudahan esok gue dapat daya untuk berjumpa dengan pakcik tua tu....

zzzzzzzzzzzz............................








assalamualaikum wbt....

approximately 9 days lagi to the dateline project practical werk....i.e.: another 216 hours to go...

I want to believe that I can do it!!!...Like old man's saying' "..with ordinary talents and perseverence, all things are attainable.."

"...it takes an ordinary man, with ordinary talent, at an extraodinary time...bla..bla..bla..what was it?.....anyone ?..pls...

At last, my design now has it's finale shape........the 8051 microcontroller....most widely used in the market nowadays..
I'v used once...did my Auto_Aquarium Final project for my Diploma..few years ago..cool device indeed!!
Once u've mastered the programming and assembler stuff.....u'll probably get hooked...I'm warnin ya!!

Better get to werk guys.....

wassalam

3.07.2004

there was a soul flying in the mid sky.....
hoping the sun to light up the day....
hoping the moon to cheer up the night....
and what he get was
an eternal light, not from the sun....
not from the moon too..
but somehow..it has been inside the soul...eversince...
the soul had just realised of that fact...

damn!!.....the soul just couldn't bear the ravaging force from no where
and all the soul can do was just to..stood still....eyes wide shut....
leaving the heart to do all the talking.....
leaving the mind to do all the thinking....
please...let me have the eternal light back...beg the soul to HIS mercy..
and not knowing when it'll be granted...
the soul kept on doing the talking and thinking...silently....unnoticed..

forseeing all the catastrophic days that might be faced by the soul.....
Oh no....that's not gonna happen....isn't it?!.....isn't it?!.....
There was no one to answer the soul's doubtness.......
But the soul himself.....